#hes always been caring and forgiving hes changed BUT HE HASNT

[himejoshiangels]

duke and fear gas..NOBODY LOOK AT MME!! fuck a basic ass "He's afraid that his parents might never recover" u wnna know what has more canon evidence? he's fucking terrified that when they do recover they won't recognize him. What happens when they see their son who cut his cornrows, who has 3 new piercings and towers over them with all sorts of scars litering his body that he can't even begin to explain. Even worse what if they're disappointed in him, what if he isn't what they expected or wanted from their son at all? what if his mannerisms are unrecognizable, his speech patterns, his interests and so on. what if they'd rather cling to a version of him that no longer exists

being forced to watch them live happy fulfilling lives from behind a glass screen because he cant envision fitting between them after he's changed so much

[limpfisted]

Wyll is not well-adjusted he is repressed and there is a difference

Sometimes being nice... is worse!

Does wyll forgive his father. Does he even know. Does he let himself feel that pain out loud. Does he let his Father see how much he hurt him. How much that will always hurt him

He hasnt told anyone about mizora in seven years. He doesn't talk about other punishments from her. He doesn't defend himself when u call him a liar, a hypocrite, a monster.

Suffering in silence is still suffering. And he's had to deal with a lot of silence these past seven years

He was a homeless disabled queer teenager with a literal devil that STILL follows him around and he ONLY says no to her bc he doesn't want to kill an innocent person. And he tells you he's scared for himself after he doesn't kill karlach. That there will be a reckoning for him. He says it in a vague riddle bc he can't even tell u about mizora

Like he's been hunting devils since he was 17 and he doesn't even talk about avernus or devils except to talk about how evil and cruel and vicious and dangerous they are like hmmmmm I wonder how he knows that. I wonder

Like there are some people who never talk about their trauma but it doesn't mean they're well adjusted it just means that despite all wylls poetry, he doesn't know how to express how deeply he's been hurt. And that's sad!

He can say the most beautiful words to support u and tell u how he loves u, how devoted he is to other people, how proud of them he is

But when it comes to himself. I just did what was right. What's done is done. Let's keep moving

And u know that's certainly one way to get thru it but also he just dismisses his own needs and weaknesses and soul like that

Damn you can't even tell him you're proud of him the whole game. U can't give him a hug. U can't tell him you'll take care of him for a change. Fuck broe

[my-castles-crumbling]

hey cas, its D anon.

i have kinda an update? not really

my grandmother hasnt reached out at all since she tried to apologize and i told her not to touch me and that i didnt want to talk to her.

i've kinda worked out a response to whatever apology she has, which mainly involves me not forgiving her but being civil. i feel kinda cruel that i don't plan on ever forgiving her, especially since i know she's really struggling with her parents and her siblings, but at the same time, i know i dont have to give her anything.

basically my response to whatever apology she wants to give is that she did something i wont forgive her for, she crossed the line of anything i'll ever forgive by hurting my siblings, and that i'll be civil but there's no way in hell i'll forgive her

idk i know you'll say that my emotions are valid but i feel like im being too mean? she's been a trusted adult my whole life, especially when my other set of grandparents turned out to be not good people. shes someone i've been kinda dependent on, especially since it really felt like i just had her and my grandpa and my dad.

not to go too deep, but my mother and i dont have a good relationship, shes verbally and sometimes physically abusive, and we rarely interact because she spends so much of the time we're together guilt tripping me into making me fee bad for isolating from her

i love my dad, he's my best friend. and my siblings are my number one priority, always.

i think the main reason i was hurt so much and that i wont forgive my grandmother is because i really relied on her to be someone i trusted to be with my siblings and take care of them, especially when there's so little people i trust with them.

idrk what im asking here, maybe just to rant? idk im just very sick of the situation and i wish there was something i could do without going against my judgement to make things the way they were.

whatever advice you have, im willing.

Hi!

Honestly, I think whatever you decide is valid. She broke your trust and you have every right to tell her you don't forgive her.

I think you're also being really mature by saying you'll be civil.

Now, if she makes a HUGE effort to show she's changing, working to understand her past actions, learning about how to better understand your siblings and their needs (as well as yours) and she like...puts her all into that? Then maybe down the road it might be worth reconsidering. But for now, I wouldn't feel guilty. Let HER feel guilty and do some work showing she can do better.

[moonrisecoeur]

oh lord, ok, im back with more filth. apologies again in advance. youve literally encouraged my delusions. i am so delulu for him

**also just wanna disclaimer that im transmasc so if some of the things i say are worded a bit weird its just bc im not personally thinking in a fem perspective ! :)

i know i already talked about it but goddd i want to just pamper and pretty leon up so badly. leon just seems like an eyeliner and nail polish type of guy i cant explain it. hes just so Damn gorgeous in his re2 1998 concept art (leon is genuinely such a fuckin pretty man). i just wanna do his eye makeup, i wanna paint his nails, and god forgive me but id find some pretty lipstick to put on him too. i want to make him cry from pleasure so i can see his eyeliner and shadow leave streaks on his face. i want to fucking smear his lipstick and make him look like a fucking slut. i want to make him kiss and bite my thighs so he leaves them lipstick stained. i wanna tell him how hes such a good boy and to look at how pretty his lipstick marks are while he sucks on me. GRAhh. i wanna press his hands to the bed, look at his pretty fingernails as he holds onto my hand for dear fucking life while i fuck him.

id actually commit atrocities to see leon in thigh highs. LIKE GOD DAMN. FUCK, id be sweating hed look so fucking sexy in that. and yes, some lingerie. i dont care he'd look perfect with his fat tits being barely covered by some pretty lace. and i know hed be so god damn shy at first (god hes so cute), but hed change tune so fast when you cant keep yourself off of him, pawing his tits and biting his thighs. AND BY GOD. THE THIGH HIGHS STAY THE FUCK ON. that man also has THICK fucking thighs, perfect for grabbing and manhandling while you fuck him. like god damn have you seen the power behind those kicks? and all of that strength is gone when you start praising him and rubbing your cock against his ass.

ehehe i think about being with re2 leon domestically sooooso much im ngl. i legit constantly think about how hot itd be to fuck him in uniform ok. loosen enough of the buttons on his button up so you can oogle his chest, pull his pants down just enough so you can fuck him, trapping his legs with his belt. working him up through his pants, driving him crazy bc theyre too thick to get off from just you rubbing through them but getting enough feeling that it gets him hot and bothered. how rough his fingerless gloves would feel against your skin as he grabs at you for support.

i kinda. imagine, at least re2 leon, probably hasnt really done anything involving his ass aside from like, a little bit of curious exploring. (older leons is a hard maybe but this is about my pookie rookie) he'd always been insanely into you domming him, but i know hed be so fucking SHY when you bring up the suggestion of topping him. youd have to give him some time to think on it, poor baby. he's not sure how he feels about it, at least thats what he tells himself, but he cant help but get so flustered when he thinks about it. and you bet that he was redder than a tomato when he asks you to try it. the first time you just start with just your fingers, and that already has him fucking weak and quivering under you. cant control his fucking volume (not like he ever could). touch his dick and hes done. after that, god hed be addicted to it, it takes him a while to get over the initial shyness he feels about liking it so god damn much but FUCK i would not mind hes so sexy underneath me.

and. op. good LOOOORRRRDD. ["but also want to fuck him so so slow and deep i can feel it moving around if i put on hand on his abdomen"] FUCK. GOD DAMNNNN FUCK. when you start fucking him often he'd def loooove pushing his limits on how much he can take. he wants you to stretch his ass, fucking loves the feeling of you pushing in him and hushing him while peppering his face and neck in kisses. he loves to feel stretched and full of your cock and lets you know it, cant keep quiet about it. also this is probably just me but. want that man to have a fucking bush of a happy trail. i wanna run my fingers through and play with it while i fuck him slow and deep so i can feel my cock stretch him. god ID fucking be whimpering at that its so fucking hot jesus christ, i also kjhgkjhsdghsdkgf i love leon having a soft body. like yes he absolutely takes pride in working out and his strength but. softness around those muscles..mmmhnn. softness around muscles is just good in general i like him being at a healthy weight give my man some food rn pleaseee.

i wanna take him out on dates so i can grab and squeeze his waist in the same spot id grab it to fuck him just to get him worked up and thinking about it. what's gonna happen to him the moment no ones watching. or fuck, even better trying to not attract an audience. itd be hard because hes so god damn loud. also maybe even fuck with his head by making him wear a toy. i wanna drive him insane in public. i want him to flush bright red in public from humiliation because he cant think or talk straight.

this is gonna be sooooo controversial but. i know everyone thinks vendetta leon is a hard dom but. i disagree hard on that. hes a BRAT. hes a MASSIVE fucking brat. he'd try real damn hard to come off as a hard dom too, and he'd have such a snarky lip when you try to make him submissive. but if you know what to do it's the easiest shit ever. grab him by the back of his hair and pull his head back. bite and kiss on his neck. whisper to him how its ok baby, i know youre a good boy, i know how badly you wanna be a good boy for me, you dont have to be in control for me love, i wanna make you feel so good. tell him hes Your good boy (fuck hed love you claiming him, hed love you referring to him possessively). man handle him against the wall or onto the edge of the bed. and, god, you could bend him over so fucking easy. hed be a babbling mess, no thoughts in his pretty little head aside from your words and your dick. first time you fuck his ass hed cum untouched just from you praising him.

ok this is a bit on the weirder side but. god dogboy leon is so hot? also just. werewolves are sexy as fuck. so like consider werewolf leon. ok and then put him in a collar. he'd follow you like a lost puppy, doesnt even need a leash. he loves his leash and collar so much tho, showing who he belongs to, he loves getting tugged around by you. and you cant stop because he makes the prettiest whimpers when you do. i wanna stroke his ears while im on top of him, i wanna pull his tail when i bend him over. itd be so hot being marked up by his sharp teeth and claws cause poor little puppy cant control himself when youre fucking him so good.

OK THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG JESUS CHRIST

THIS ISNT PEGGING BUT I JUST. WANNA THROW THIS OUT THERE TOO BC GGRHHH. its been getting cold and alllll i can think abouttt is just a warm and comfy at home date. get some warm drinks, maybe watch a movie or play a game, but poor baby cant focus 'cause im cockwarming him the entire time. he can hold on for dear life all he wants, but tries anything? tries getting himself off? what a bad boy. hed fucking choke a sob at that. im just trying to help him relax and stay warm. he doesnt need to be thinking anything during his well deserved time off. dont worry ill make sure he knows how good he is when he relaxes and enjoys our drinks, movie, game, date. ill praise him when he stays still while i milk his dick. such a good boy, being obedient while i make him cum inside of me after a very long night. <3

-🐕

AHHH THE THOUGHTS CONSUME ME

i am so sorry ill stop bugging you after this if you want but god i just wanted to add in, i want to mark and bruise leon up so much that hed have to dress like a fucking nun if he didnt want anyone seeing how aggressively ive claimed him. (he doesnt. he likes everyone knowing. :))

-🐕

i don't even know what to respond to this except i promise ill write something soon hehehe. thank you for your serivce pls send more as more horny thoughts come to u. i expect to hear from u every day like clockwork

[thithesandofferings]

Yandere FFXV Crew

FFXV being Yandere- Gladiolus/Noctis/Prompto/Ignis/Ardyn/Regis

*Covers eyes* I am not here. But you are. You might as well read. 

:readmore:

TW:  MINORS DNI  Dark Content. Yandere themes. Stalking. Dubious Dubious Consent. Slight Daddy kink. Masochism. Sadism. Slight exhibitionism. Fear play. 

Gladiolus - Geeezzz he's so in love with you. Has been for so long. Just watching you through the castle. He just knows you'd look good in his bed. With a ring on your finger (and neck) crying out his name. He sees the other knights in the castle chatting you up, but he may or may not be standing behind you giving them the death glare. Its only accidental that a couple of knights disappear. Only happenstance that these were the same men that gave you a hard time. When you look at him with needy eyes asking him for help, he has to have you. Wont let you out of his room. Look hes trying to make you feel safe and secure. You may think he's not the kindest when he buckles you in your collar connected to a brick wall and gives you the deepest of kisses. Grips your chin to open your mouth so he has more access- every day before he goes to work. He knows you hate when he leaves and hes gonna make it up to you. He even promised you a baby if youre good. Your eyes are misting, but theres no reason for it. you know he's gonna fuck you into that very same wall when he gets home. Give you all the attention that you've been whining for. "Awww sorry princess, Daddy didnt mean it. Im not letting you go unitl you forgive me".

Noctis- Two words. Cage Beds. Always. He loves you, but he cant trust you as far as he can throw. He was even nice enough to pick the bed with you in the room.  Keeps one leg shackeled at all times when he doesnt have sights on you. Why would you want to get out anyways? Your sole purpose is to serve him. He would never feel bad for taking your life. Its his anyways. He might use the guards to spy on you, and so what? You like to run. And not that he doesnt like to chase you, no, it becomes a hassle when he has duties to fulfill for the kingdom. Playtime is not 24/7 pet and you know this. He has to roll his eyes because it seems that no one understands that not a single soul is allowed to talk to you in any capacity. At this point he's going to have to pay his public executioner more, he's been working overtime. Probably gonna have to fuck your little mouth shut again just to give everyone a break.  He would hope you'll get used to being his possession. Its hardly sexual at this point, especially when he can use you like a malleable toy. You're cute,  but he's really been thinking about...experimentation during his down time. Wonders what you'd do if he held a syringe of anything next to that cute face.  

Prompto - He doesnt mean to be angry. He doesnt. But you just make him so hot, its hard to cipher his feelings out of something so strong. You were so nice and thats why he took you in the first place; but now youre so hurtful. How is he supposed to deal with that- especially when youre saying mean things to him. How could you say something about his humanity! He has it! He definitely doesnt mean to bruise you, gripping your waist so tight that bruises form, its an honest mistake. But he has to prove it to you somehow that he is deserving of you. He adores it when he fucks you so good that you pass out. Pleas and gasp making an abrupt choked noise when your head hits the pillow. Doesnt mean he's gonna stop his hips from moving. He needs to prove to you that you are it. So he'll fuck you awake so he can remind you. No matter how much it takes.

Ignis- Wants to get inside your head first. To be the only thing you think about. Walks by you and sometimes bumps into you. Says he's sorry and touches you. makes sure that your mind drifts to him. He knows exactly where you're going to be at the exact time. Of course he's input cameras into every point in your house and office. He cant keep an eye off you for a second. What if that "partner" from the other cubicle comes by and hassles you again? He sees the way that man looks at you. Distractingly similar to how Ignis himself looks at you. But that guy doesnt care about you. Doesnt know what you like to eat or what flowers you like first thing in the morning. Or that you even prefer to be bent over the desk rather than pressed against the window. Probably doesnt know that your hole squeezes just a little tighter when someone walks pass. Has to press his hand against your mouth when you get a little too loud. Frown deepens when he thrust into you as hard as he can when your "partner" knocks on the door.

Ardyn- He's so giddy when you wake up and his lips are already on yours before your eyes open. He picked up the change of breathing and wanted to be ready for you. He can mark what belongs to him right? Gods he cant wait until he puts bruises on that pretty skin. He wants to hear you whine for him. You may be a resistant now, but you'll come around. They always do. He's seen the way your eyes flutter just slightly when he grasps your throat when youre being just a little too bratty. The way you beg gets him so hard- he wants to fuck you where you stand, but he's trying to be patient. Knows that one day you'll come to him crawling on your hands and knees with that cute little collar, leash in mouth, begging for him to fuck you. He can wait. He's waited this long hasnt he?

Regis- In the name of the throne, it has to be done. You have to be his. Does not matter your standing whether high status or low born. You were supposed to be his. The Gods told him so. Its a shame you were taken from your home by his very guards, but he knew you would have a better life with him. He would treat you right. Give you all the little toys your heart desired. He's wanted you for so long. How dare you ignore him? A king? He'd make sure you never step foot out of the castle again. For your own good. You deserved the best. And you would get the best too wouldnt you? His fingers, his mouth, even his time. He wants those beautiful face writhing in pleasure not pain, but if you dont behave, he'll take either.

[kneehighcrocs]

i kinda wish sometimes that characters in shows that are outwardly bad ppl (bullies etc) stopped getting redemptions. bc when theyre “redeemed” ppl instantly forget every bad thing theyve done and how many ppl theyve hurt. and sometimes a character doesnt even need a redemption, bc ppl will ignore how terrible they are and completely shit on the whole character with a bunch of “omg no my little bean is such a tsundere theyre actually in love with the person theyre bullying” like ????

i think one example of this is boscha from toh, bc even after literally dumping garbage on her she is STILL shipped with willow. has she even made any effort to be nice to her? ever?? shes tormented her since she was around six, and ppl managed to dig deep enough to say its a relationship that should happen.

unlike amity, who has clearly made an effort and put in work to be better, towards willow and also just in general, boscha hasnt changed at all. shes still rude to willow, and its not a crowd-following thing either- even after willow is the focus of a small crowd, showing her in a positive light, boscha still picks on her anyways, ignoring everyone else. boscha is not in love with willow??

another example i think is alador also from toh. he may not be as bad as odalia, but hes only been making any kind of effort for abt seven episodes- that barely makes up for 14 years, right? im not saying hes not trying to be better, im saying that when ppl talk abt him they act like hes some hero, rebelling against his abusive wife to protect his kids, like hes been doing his whole life- he hasnt. amity says, after alador mentions the emperors coven, that “it was always moms dream, and you just went along with it.” i dont think he was opposed to the fact that odalia was controlling every aspect of his kids lives. i dont think he wouldve changed anything if amity hadnt spoken up.

while odalia is definitely worse than alador, ppl are so ready to forgive him that they forget that he cooperated with her.

ive kicked myself off now so im gonna keep ranting

bakugo from bnha. (may include spoilers here) i havent rly kept up with the show, but ppl treat him like royalty, and for what? hes not very directly a good person, bullying the shit out of deku since they were kids, to an extent that could honestly provoke legal action- he (iirc) literally threw his books off a roof or smth like that?? not to mention he basically told deku to khs, and until abt 16 has still been incredibly rude to him, and everyone else apart from his “one friend” kirishima, who hes still mean to occasionally.

ppl dont care abt his abusive past, and his relationship with his mother, bc the show kinda treats it like a joke and smth to be ignored bc “oh thats normal.” dont him and his mum literally hit eachother? if im remembering right, him and mitsuki got into an argument in abt five seconds, while his dad and all might (i think) just sat there, and his dad just brushed it off.

if any of thats incorrect im sorry but i havent watched the show or rly anything to do with it since like 2020

and billy hargrove from stranger things is another example, bc ppl seem to ignore his racism and abusive behaviour simply bc he died (and is also conventionally attractive, but thats a whole other rant). he was barely ever nice to max but ppl talk abt him like hes an angel bc he did one good thing.

[helloyesthisisdado]

dado goi thoughts

hello all dado follower since dado has hit the mile stone dado will be revealing his thoughts on all the goi that he can find on that one page on scipnet yes.

pls do not ask dado how he got on scipnet.

es see pee foundation: dado does not like the es see pee as they love to steal fine dado product and or threaten dado over email. alex ya va university: dado personally not interreact with them but has tried to sell the fine horses to them as he think they would like the high power horse. i think they could be good dado friends. ambrose restaurant: dado since change opinion on them and think they r wonderful place to eat at, great food for dado and is now business partner of dado. anderson robot: dado has tried and tried to work with them but they always say "mr dado u r so unprofessional at the robot" even though dado make fine robot like tsar roomba. they r not very nice. are we cool yet: dado does not know how to feel about the are we cool ppl as many of them hate dado but some do not hate dado. the are we cool ppl sometimes prank dado and dado does not like that. the black queen: dado wishes to not talk about the black queen as they do not like dado for some reason, dado does not know why. chaos insurgency: ppl who are better then the es see pee and dado like to pay them to go hit ppl, but still sometime steal dado product but dado is forgiving man and they do good job, dado like them. chicago ghost: dado once made a cigar for chicago ghosts and dado think "hmmm chicago ghost very cool" but then dado watch ghostbusters and dado no longer like them. church of broken god or something: dado is very on edge with religions especially the crazy cult kind of ppl but these guys are very friendly towards dado and do not mind him, dado will sometimes fund their crazy ongoings. the church of the second high tooth: dado does not like the cults. dado: idk why dado on goi list but dado like himself. u trust dado. dr wondertaintment (tee em): dado love the dr wondertaintment (tee em) and dado strives to be like them with all whimsy (tee em) and fun, but dado is not good at making the toy sometimes so he leave that to them. favourite dado partner. the factory: dado number one enemy as dado hate the factory and wish dado could punch them into the sky with dado boxing glove. dado wishes they suffer for long time. five church: dado does not like cult as he stated before and this no exception but dado find it funny how they worship the starfish like the patrick star from spunch bob. maybe they r funny ppl. gamers against weed: dado think the fact they r against weed is good thing as dado does not like devil lettuce, so dado support them but when dado try to enter chat room it fill dado pc with the weed so dado think the es see pee is attack them, they r cool ppl. global occult coal miners: just as bad as es see pee if not worse as they actively want dado heads, very bad and dado does not like it when they raid warehouse or threaten dado customer. do not threaten dado customer. dado stillnot consider them number one enemy. gru-p: dado had run in with gru-p when he make product for the russian but other then that no bad quarrels with the gru-p, dado hasnt heard from them for while though. circus of quiet ppl: dado is mortal enemy of circus as they ruined his moon fort and forced him to fight the spaceman in fisticuff (which dado won) dado wishes to not intrude on their business though. maybe could repair relationship. the horizon something (dado forgot): dado does not attempt to speak with them and wishes not to. ijamea: mmm dado love jam, very tasty. manna charity foundation: dado loves support charity like the good businessmen who r rich should, donate many product and money to them as anonymoose, very good ppl dado support. martian cottage and grimdark: dado does not know how to feel about them as they tried to hack dado, steal his product but also willing to work with dado??? dado have many bad experience though so he is 50/50 on them. nobody: dado cannot read into nobody as they are nobody. oria: who? oneiroi collection: helped dado with his dream marketing which is very good at selling the product to higher entity, dado like them as they r helpful for dado to further market in dream. pattern screamers:

dadafuiasfhiafhnidhfajkbfajgbgadgasjkgbahdgbgjkabgjlalgbadghlalgah srry hamster on keyboard. prometheus lab: dado similar to them, maybe dado even worked for them before is where dado got his keyboard from as well, dado miss them sometimes. sharkic cults: dado hate cults and dado hates sharks, dado does not like them at all. snake hands: dado feel bad for the walking library ppl with the snake hands and wish he could help them cure snake hands but dado is banned from library like what the? dado is try to help them and they treat him poorly. the shark punching centre: dado supports their cause 101% as dado hates sharks and sharko, dado donates 10% of his money made to them so they can punch sharks and sometimes dado will punch sharks. great people. uiu: hahahahah wizard police cannot touch mighty dado business, dado still hate them though as they will actively look for dado product that have been sold and take them away!!! wilson wildlife solution: very great ppl, take care of the horses (dado offer to replace before) and very kind ppl. dado wishes he could meet the tim wilson man in person but dado is very busy all the time. dado like them. three moon ppl: dado tries to avoid at all cost and they could spell end to dado business! very bad ppl, dado do not like, hate them alot. █████ industrial: dado pity them as they try to take the easy way out, big hole left in market and dado sometimes will try fill it in but he is not good at filling them in. dado wishes he could help. atf: evilest company run by evilest man (except factory) wishes to abuse customer base, does not respect customer either. dado does not like the atf. atari arcadia: dado think the arcade making and the game making is a very good idea for the business venture and maybe dado should reach out to them?? dado will try later, possibly good business partner. deer college: dado funds them in return dado get to help with school food menu full of yummy dado food, also dado will sometime teach the class there and is like "i am dado i teach u the magic pill and stuff" nice place to be. daevites: dado does not like the evil cult. eric: dado see alot of his younger self in eric so dado sometime reach out to him in time of the need and will offer help and maybe even the free dado product (wow) and also offer him support on his own things. just girl things: dado once tried break into market but did not agree with founder of just girl things so dado cut the ties and never talk to them again, does not like dado either. light courier enterprise: make the good product that dado like to keep and also spread a good message, very truthful and good ppl. lord blackwood: one of dado good friend who will share the tale that inspire dado to make a product, also look after robert mitchell when dado cannot. parawatch: the dado arg did not go over well, dado apologies to parawatch.net. not on good terms with dado either, will not come back. saturn deer planet guy: dado will sometime talk to them but dado is like "u r so evil and mean, dado is not like the evil and mean ppl" so dado block them. scarlet king: dado is not on good terms with red king man, dado try sell to him before and all he did was try and kill dado so dado will not try again. totleighsoft: dado once tried to invest in them but all they did was scream hazard at dado so dado gave up. dado glad he did not invest as they make the bad product. the going to hell ppl who made the puppy machine: also dado enemy, dado does not like or understand the product they make and wishes they go bankrupt or something soon. ok that is all goi dado can think of, dado hope u like his list and thoughts on the matter.

[dizzyingflicker]

frigid air (fic commentary)

literally no one asked for this but hello! hi! if you didn’t know, i wrote a 11 chapter fic called ‘frigid air’ a few weeks back. the fic started as jayhoon centric, but it kinda got off the rails from there hehe

the birth of the idea

so the bri from a few weeks ago was already thinking about writing a lengthy enha au. 

i just finished writing a jakehoon one shot and wanted to try my hand at writing another ship! at first, i thought of typical au ideas that were college themed. those are the most fun to write and read imo, bc it’s so grounded in reality. and also bc the jakehoon one shot i wrote was a lot heavier and angsty, which was something i think i’m better at doing! there’s this really great fic i read that inspired me to try my hand at some lighter themes! 

after reading that au, i was like “hmmmm im gonna try writing some romcom type of stuff.” i always ALWAYS write angst, so this was a really nice and fun change! 

yes, back to the college au ideas. i then began to think about what majors the enha kids would do if they went to college. my notes for the first outline kind of went like this: 

Jay - fashion major, new addition to the dorm, is rich but doesnt want anyone to know, is kind despite being taken advantage of in his hometown, just wants a normal family 

Heeseung - music production major, has a soundcloud lowkey but doesn't let anyone know, is going thru his first real heartbreak and is using music to deal with it 

Jungwon - hasnt decided on a major, came to uni w a full ride taekwondo scholarship, secret boyfriend, coming to terms w sexuality 

Jake - australian exchange student, architecture major, maybe gets a weird stalker? 

Sunoo - beauty school, wants to be a hairstylist, kinda eccentric, knows everyone’s business

Sunghoon - figure skater, doesnt go to school, is close to getting on the national team, lives in a dorm to avoid his tiger parents, softspot for his younger sister

Niki - dance major from japan, is a little too clingy, feels lonely away from his family 

in hindsight, the characters here seem a lot more deeper and fleshed out as compared to what i ended up writing, but i realized that if i kept all of this in - it would’ve been really overwhelming for the reader. i had to remind myself that this was a jayhoon centric fic LMAOOOOO 

after writing this, i was like “WAITTTT A HOT SEC” this sounds a lot like hello my twenties! which btw, is an amazing show on netflix that you should definitely watch. i watched this show with my girlfriend and man, the way it handled all of the a,b,c, etc plots was so fantastic. 

every character had their own stories and that’s what i loved. usually in fics or aus, a lot of the side characters sort of fade into the background. they also do this thing where their main reason for existence is to lift the mc or main ship up in the story. i wanted to avoid that, so taking inspo from hello my 20s, i decided to give every character a story. whether it be something big like sunoo’s stalker or something small like heejake’s and jungniel’s development, i wanted to give them all something to tell. in hello my 20s, each of the girs living in that house had their own unique stories that fit them really well. whether i did it as well as the writers of the show - that’s something else to unpack, right? 

the characters and their developments 

so this is something i’m not sure if i did well in or not. the original plot was to have jay and sunghoon not get along at all. with jay’s abrasiveness and sunghoon’s surface coolness, i thought it would be fun to see them butt heads. but i realized that it wasn’t so realistic because they don’t really see each other enough to butt heads that much. i thought making sunghoon shy and reserved (thus standoffish) while jay tries his best to make sunghoon open up was a lot more cuter. 

jay is a lot more bold in this, even through his embarassing moments. he’s self-assured, determined and open to pretty much anything. he’s generous and friendly. the only weakness jay has is he’s too presumptious sometimes and assumes stuff without any real basis, as seen with him assuming that ryujin and sunghoon were dating bc of a passing remark from jake and some yt comments. i gave him a dead dad at the end of the fic bc hello we’re projecting but also to explain why he’s super close to his mum and why he’s just a tad bit behind everyone else his age. i wanted to expand on this a little but sadly, i kinda ran out of words to talk about this. if you know what i mean. tbh, jay doesn’t have much of a development in this. that’s something i really want to improve on in my next au, giving my mc some actual development instead of getting carried away with other side characters. 

sunghoon is, as i said, shy and reserved. he has a lil trauma from being rejected by seon years ago. you can tell that his experience was not pleasant at all - so he keeps feelings of attraction and want farrrrrr away from him. sunghoon is sorry he’s an anti-romantic, if you will. throughout this fic, you see him open up to jay and realize that not every guy he’s attracted to will reject him painfully. he also learns that he doesn’t need to keep people at an arms length away and that opening himself up to more people will bring about very nice things! very cliche but hey, it iz what it iz. 

jungwon was a fun one to write! not bc i feel a little of what he feels, but bc he’s adorable with daniel and having him be unsure was fun to write. jungwon is pretty self-assured in this fic, but with daniel, he’s not really sure what he’s doing. 

heeseung feels secure enough with jake that he’s willing to sing in front of him, which is something he doesn’t do. jake is very naive about relationships and hee’s feelings for him, but heeseung kind of brings him down back to reality with the scene from han river. heeseung is getting over a breakup and that stuff takes a while, so that’s why i didn’t let them get together too fast. hee knows how jake feels about him and he doesn’t want to ruin it by jumping into things so fast. 

sunoo is super friendly and too trusting with people, which is both a blessing and a curse. niki and him have been attached to the hip since their friendship started and niki sees sunoo as a very very dear friend to him. bc who else lets him sleep in his bed and who else buys him taiyaki everyday? that’s right, it’s his sunoo hyung. sunoo also cares for niki a lot and they’re just very sweet. 

what i did well and what i didn’t 

okay this is debatable, but i did like how i wrote the developing relationships in this, mostly the ones that weren’t the main jayhoon arc. i liked the way i wrote jungwon and daniel’s little friction and i loved heejake’s confession scene. 

the humour in this was a little weak for me, but it was my first attempt at writing it so it’s forgivable. 

i just wished i wrote the main relationship better. i feel like it took a while at the beginning and suddenly went from 49 to 27403 real quick. if i were to rewrite it, i’d give them a lot more time to pine as that stage before friends and maybe insert more conflict. 

i’d give jay a stronger conflict other than trying to befriend with sunghoon. his character felt very 1d for me and i didn’t like that. i needed to develop him more tbh LMAOOO 

music! 

anti-romantic by txt

perhaps love by eric nam ft cheeze

love poem by iu 

give love by akmu 

hope ur ok by olivia rodrigo 

only yoou by yand da il 

references for sunghoon’s ice skating 

sunghoon’s white outfit in the youtube video with ryujin 

sunghoon’s black outfit in nationals 

the reference pic jay draws of sunghoon (which seon sees) 

if you read the fic, i’d like to say thank you! i had a lot of fun writing this and seeing everyone’s reactions to the plot twists was super fun hehehehe i genuinely loved doing it even tho it gave me a lot stress! thank u for reading this if u read it too LMAOOOOO 

[ao3gingerswag]

Sammy has experience stealing things. He knows Dean will only take his help when he’s desperate, but he’s used to sneaking and stealing things for Dean. When he was little, he saw Dean being hurt for coming home without enough coin, so he tried stealing coin from John to give to Dean while Dean was wandering outside trying to make money. He was caught and Dean came home to Sam hurt badly and Sam was so little that he caved and told Dean all that had happened. Dean held him and cried and cried and made Sam promise not to do it again and Sam did promise, but the temptation is always there.

When market day comes, Sam is given a penny and has a great time buying a fun treat and doesn’t even think until they’re headed home that he could have held on to the penny for Dean to get out of punishment later. He could have saved Dean from a future beating without even stealing. He feels so selfish and short sighted. Now that the thought is in his mind, it feels like any day now Cas will tell Dean to go make money and Dean won’t make enough. So Sam decides to steal a few coins from Cas, slipping them into his pocket after a customer pays for food and finding a good place to hide it. It’s not much, but it gives him a feeling of a little safety until he can trust Cas.

-Ace

omggggg ;~; yes yes baby ;~; he wants to help dean!!! oh no the idea of him trying to steal money for dean to give to john is </3 ! and dean would be fucking hysterical if he came back to find sam hurt because he’d been trying to help dean. maybe sam does Get It that he cant steal from john bc if he gets caught dean will fucking lose it again just be so so fucking sad and scared. and he hates seeing dean like that so he doesnt do that again (breaking dean’s heart is scarier to him than getting hurt on his behalf ;~;). but hes like. ok i cant steal from JOHN. what about other ppl. and maybe thats how he starts pickpocketing. but ofc dean wouldn’t accept that money to give to john, bc he didnt Earn It, and bc he’s too loyal and obedient to even consider lying to him ;~; so instead sam slips the coins he steals into dean’s pockets, so when he goes to give john the $$ hes just like ?? huh i dont remember making that much? weird! (its never enough anyway though ;~; john is always mad. and then dean feels like he failed, but secretly so does sam, bc he didnt manage to steal enough to placate john. and he cant even talk about his guilt to dean bc he doesnt want dean to know!!! oh no ive made myself sad)

thief/pickpocket!sam has a very special place in my heart.

ok i love this idea about market day. i think i mentioned somewhere else that both dean and sam are 100% gonna buy something for each other as like a ~surprise~ come market day. so sam def gets something for dean, but whatever it is, its not just literal coin. and then yes ;~; theyre heading home and sam is happy w/ whatever little toy dean got him, and hes happy watching dean eat whatever sweet sam got him <3 and then hes suddenly like. wait. i should have saved that. dean might need that, to give back to cas later ;~;

so then yes!! he steals some coin from cas. he wants to have a good stash so that maybe it will be enough to appease cas later, but he’s smart so he doesnt just grab a whole bunch of money, bc he knows cas will notice. instead he like. does what u said. he just like pockets the money when he brings someone a cup of ale or something. and he does this like once every few days for a while, and hides the money under a floorboard or something.

(i think cas is way more meticulous than sam realizes tho, partially bc he’s autistic, he likes keeping track of things and having everything be very organized, he’s very detail oriented. so i think he does notice that they’re missing a penny or 2 here and there, whenever sam is on shift. but i also don’t think he thinks sam is stealing, i think he just thinks he’s 10 and distracted sometimes and still learning how to do the job effectively. after all, cas gets short changed sometimes too, when things r really busy. so he doesnt bring it up, bc he doesnt want to discourage sam or make him feel like hes doing a bad job ;~; <3)

anyway now i feel like this could go two directions- either at some point, sam realizes that cas is a good person who does his best to take care of them, and he’s overwhelmed by guilt. he returns the coins, crying bc he feels so bad, is still half convinced cas is gonna hit him, but he’s so repentant that he feels like he would deserve it. ofc cas does nothing of the sort and just comforts him, and sam gets to spill his heart out about how awful it was to watch dean scramble to make money for john and still get hurt, and how he used to steal to try to help him, and how he was scared he would have to do the same thing here ;~; and cas is like i will never ever make ur brother whore again, and i will never hurt him or u for not making money. ;~;

OR! over time he trusts cas more and more, but he still keeps his stash just in case. years go by tho, and he doesnt need it, and he never even thinks about it, bc eventually he’s at the point where he doesnt even question that cas is safe. so he totally forgets about the stash of coins. until one day like 20 years later he finds it again on accident. and hes like a full grown adult in his 30 whos married and hasnt been afraid for his safety in years and years. and he’s like. oh my god. ;~; and he remembers how scared he was back then and how big of a burden he had on his little shoulders. and maybe he sees his childhood self objectively and understands that he was trying so hard to protect himself and dean, even if he came off as spiteful and full of rage. and maybe he lets go of that last tiny leftover bit of self hatred, and forgives himself for the things he had to do to survive <3 ;~;

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what do you think of bakugou and endeavor redemption arcs?

SEE THE THING IS,

I feel like bnha is always on the precipice of like. Touching on some REAL stuff but it always backs out at the last moment.

First of all im a big hater of both characters so expect a biased opinion here (lol). But i do think they are “good characters” as in they are interesting and pertinent to the plot, complex etc. bleh. bleh bleh. but the way their arcs are written.... lots of things rly dont sit right with me 

**Fair warning i dont have the english skills to phrase this whole thing better.

1. Bkg first. I remember when bkg took the hit for deku i made fun of the whole thing bc OFCC thats how we r going to “redemp” him. Which in one hand ok, it does stay true to bkgs character bc he literally cannot communicate his feelings to save his life, hes more of an action guy. But also i really do think the buildup for that moment can be pushed more. And im not even gonna blame bkgs character entirely here bc he IS an established stubborn ass with the communication skills of a tadpole etc etc. what im gonna blame is the way horikoshi never lets deku even TOUCH on the bullying he’s endured before UA. Its literally never been discussed. Like the only time it IS brought up is the flashback we get right before bkg sacrificed himself. But deku, instead, never got the chance to process any of it. And i think thats my main problem with the whole bkg thing (and ofc there is a vindictive part where i feel like bkg hasnt got enough “repercussions” for it, which may be arguable, but thats a whole different ballpark).

i especially think bkg should apologize outright/address what he’s done to deku, but if horikoshi wants to drag that speech out (and thats if the speech will ever happen in the first place) i can accept that. BUT. to me. It has to be equal... as in deku should be allowed to address that too.

I get that deku is a virtuous main character who will supposedly forgive kacchan no matter what or whatever. And fuck it you know what, thats okay. But im begging let deku at least process it in some way. Bc the thing about deku’s character is whenever he gets angry, its always on behalf of someone else’s and not himself.

Which, again, is a virtue. But i also think the author tapping out on the whole bullying issue is kinda a coward move. Even when deku dukes it out with bkg its always about “im gonna get stronger and be number one kacchan!!111” and not “man you irreparably damaged my entire childhood and told me to [redacted] myself.”

literally the whole bullying nuance is casted out and replaced immediately with some boys will be boys rivalry. Which, really, just looks like the author taking the easy way out to me.

I can see how much both characters have grown, tho, and its clear that they care about each other. but the development is really :/ it leaves much to be desired wtf. 

I’m not satisfied w bkg’s redemption arc thingy but i dont expect anything better either. I think if i were to reread bnha from the beginning i can have a clearer perspective on the whole thing, but i dont really feel the incentive for that bc it simply doesnt compel me enough to do so LOL.

If its worth anything, i dont really hate bkg anymore. only sometimes lmfao

2. End*avor. Ugh.

Ok. I love family drama its like crack to me. the whole dabi thing had me yelling forreal. And todoroki fam has like some of my most favorite characters in the whole series.

I dont even wanna discuss end*avors character... like honestly, the ones that shine the most in end*avor redemption arc are the other family members and not end*avor himself. Which on one hand i appreciate but also i might be biased? But im really <3 over how we get todoroki rei’s character development from this arc. Not only is rei’s arc cathartic as hell but its also very, very encouraging to see a character stands over her ab*ser like that after suffering for so long. I cant express how much i love that. And fuyumi and natsuo? Insanity. I esp love how fuyumi’s efforts get the appreciation they deserve.

And i liked the surprise where dabi rained on end*avor’s parade right after end*avor thought he could actually redeem himself. Ok im not gonna sugarcoat it i just liked to watch dabi fucked him over, it was a standing applause eureka moment for me.

Honestly i think the whole concept is really delicious, like the son of the number 1 hero is a villain thing, heroes arent saints, etc etc etc. like that is so sexi so dramatic so soap opera literal superhero telenovela and i loved it a lot. Like i really enjoyed reading the whole thing. so like. i am entertained.

Do i feel like end*avor has redeemed himself? Mm NO <3. I appreciate the details that he himself thinks that he is unforgivable (blehh) and he DID suffer which was nice to watch, personally. but its not enough and it will never be <3 

im not sure if i think this way bc i just think what he did is irredeemable or bc the storytelling sucked OR BOTH <3. And i still do feel bnha did that thing where it backed out at the last moment with end*avor’s arc.... like it was touching it but it still didnt want to get its hands dirty, you know? Like what stance is it taking, really? It just never goes all out. 

i think some details about this arc also irk me...... like why does the rest family got to shoulder the burden of his fuck ups? <3 die <3 like this part annoys me so much. and seeing how he got to be comforted after everything he’s done.................................................... i cant even say how much that just ... pisses tf out of me <3 haha

like thats the thing. i feel like both characters (bkg n end*avor) are still coddled despite everything.

im fully aware im biased tho. and no i will not change

leaving that clownery aside, i didnt expect bnha to take this direction, so like. ..Applause i suppose :/. The recent arcs have been a pleasant surprise in some part and i will still be following its developments. i do genuinely think both characters are interesting btw i just kinda hate them lmfaooo. 

honestly, what i do. is just to keep low standards 🙌

TLDR I dont rly feel like either characters have redeemed themselves and i feel some disappointments over their respective arcs but i like the development n direction that the story is taking overall.

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Pain and Embarrassment pt 3

part of my family series

part 1

part 2

It had been 3 months since Ethan decided to ruin not only your relationship, but also the relationship he had with his kids. You had hardly spoken to him since you went out to California to be with your family. You had only called a few times to let him know that you would be back in time for the kids to start school in the fall.

There was so much he wanted to tell you, apologize for, but each time he tried either he couldnt find the words or you hung up before he got the chance to say anything. He had hardly talked to his kids these past months. Skylar and Connor wanted nothing to do with him. He expected as much from Connor, but Sky not wanting to talk to him hurt more than he thought it would. Everyone was handling this differently and coping the best they could.

The little girl who was his whole world from the moment she was born didnt want to talk to her dad. The one man she thought would never hurt her, the one she thought she could trust with her whole heart and would always be there was the one who just did the most damage. She couldnt understand how Ethan could have done something like this to not only you but to her family. The girl Ethan cheated with was only a few years older than she was and she couldnt help but think about all the times she had been to his office and had conversations with this woman. She felt like she had a part to play in this for not seeing it.

Connor not wanting to talk to him hurt in a different way than the rest. Ethan knew he could try and patch up his relationship with the other kids but it felt like there was nothing left to try and fix with Connor. He was gone all the time overseas, he had limited communication and he only came home once in a blue moon. There was no way he could try and sit down with his son unless Connor allowed it and he severely doubted that was going to happen anytime soon. Ethan knew that you were Connors whole world, you could do no wrong in his eyes and he practically worshiped the ground you walked on and while the other kids would tease him about being a mamas boy, Ethan was proud his son was so protective of you. However, this is when it seems to have backfired on him because as soon as he lost you he should have known he’d lose his son too.

Alex and Riley were understandably upset with him. They spoke to him a few times just to call and check in and let Ethan know they were okay. While they havent forgiven him, they wanted to try and move on. He was their dad, and while that doesnt give him a pass for what he did, they love him.

Noah, always looking up to Connor, followed in his big brothers steps and decided he didnt want to talk to Ethan at all. The only times Ethan managed to get Noah on the phone was when you forced him to because while Ethan hurt you, you werent going to cut him off from his own children as much as you might have wanted to. The few conversations he had with his son were short and to the point. Simple answers, he wouldnt talk about anything and Noah always kept the calls under five minutes, almost as if he had a timer running in the background and the dial tone was the alarm that let Ethan know his time was up.

Elise was the only one who would talk to him. She knew something was wrong, she knew he cheated but she didnt completely understand it and what it meant. She knew you were upset with Ethan but she only saw it as another fight that the two of you had and that you would all be okay once everyone said sorry. She missed her dad. She told you as much and she asked when you would be going back home.

And then there was you. You were trying to figure out what all of this meant for you. The relationship you had with Ethan was ruined, you knew that much for sure. But were you going to go back to New Jersey? Still live with the man who cheated on you in your own house? In your own bed? Part of you wanted to try and fix this, if not for you then for your kids. But was this something that could be fixed? You didnt think this was.

At first you were hurt when you found out. Why would your husband do this? Why would he go out and cheat repeatedly while you were home and suspected nothing? Was it something that you did that drove him to this other woman? Was it because you lost the baby? It was something that you two had argued about before and according to Ethan, the timeline matched up.

But the more you thought about it, while you were still hurt, you were angry now. None of this was your fault. You were not responsible for your cheating husband under any circumstances. He made his own choices freely and that wasnt on you. He was the one who messed up and ruined what you two had. Once you had realized all of this you were finally able to start moving on.

You still wanted answers from Ethan, but the answers wouldnt change anything. Your marriage was over, but hearing his explanation would help give you the closure you needed.  

It was now August and the kids would be starting school in a few weeks so it was time to head back to Jersey. The twins had decided to do online school, not wanting to deal with their classmates and you respected that choice. You felt they were old enough to make that choice for themselves. You had asked Noah if he wanted to do the same but he was very much against it because that meant he would be home more often with Ethan and he would much rather deal with kids at school then spend more time with his cheating father. Lizzy however was excited to go back to school because that meant she got to see her friends again and spend time with her dad who she hasnt seen all summer.

You had already talked to Grayson about picking you up from the airport and taking the kids with him for a few hours. You wanted to be able to talk to Ethan alone first without the kids being there in case things got heated between you two. They didnt need to listen to the possible yelling. And Grayson was more than happy to get to spend some time with his niece and nephew.  He dropped you off with all the luggage back at the house you shared with Ethan and left with the kids.

You took a breath and dragged the bags up the porch and into the house and left them by the stairs. The kids could use unpacking as an excuse not to talk to Ethan if they wanted to. You were debating about where to take your things when Ethan came in from the living room.

“Hey,” he said hesitantly.

“Hi,” you didnt know what else to say.

“I, uh, I moved to one of the guest rooms so you can take our room,” Ethan rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

“No, I’ll take one of the rooms.” There was no way you were willingly sleeping in the same bed he had sex with that girl in. He made his bed, now he can lay in it. Literally.

Ethan seemed to have come to the same realization and simply nodded.

“You cut your hair,” he motioned to your hair that was now just above your shoulders.

“Yeah, heard you had a thing for girls with long hair,” you replied and pushed your hair back behind your ear, not seeing him flinch at your words. Your long hair had reminded you of the girl with waist long hair he cheated with and you cut yours as soon as you could.

“Y/n,” you could see the pain in his eyes at your remark. Good. He had no right to be the one who hurt.  

“What?” What was there to say?

“Are we seriously going to start this now?” He has gone from apologetic to now annoyed.

“I’m not starting anything, you did that when you couldn’t keep it in your pants,” you pointed out.

“Y/n, I’m sorry okay? I’m sorry I cheated, it was a mistake.”

“A mistake? Ethan, a mistake is putting a red shirt with the white clothes. A mistake is forgetting to pick up something from the store.  A mistake is something you can forgive. A mistake is an accident. You don’t accidentally have sex with someone over and over again. You did that knowing what the consequences would be and you did it anyway! You don’t get to stand there and tell me this was a mistake!” You were shouting at this point but you didn’t care.

“You know the sad thing is that maybe, just maybe, I could have forgiven the first time. Maybe it would have been something we could fix. But this? This is so broken there’s nothing left to fix.”

“No, no, we can work through this. We can, I don’t know, go to counseling or something, but Y/n please,” he wasn’t going to let this end. He couldn’t.

“I want a divorce.” You said simply and took out the folder of documents that had to be signed.

“Y/n,” he said quietly.

“Please don’t fight me on this. After what you put me through it’s the least you can give me. Don’t make this harder than it has to be. We don’t need to waste money on lawyers. Sign it and we can move on.” You held out the folder to him.

“I’m not going to sign that,” he took a step back from the offending papers.

“Ethan please.”

“No.”

“Why not? Ethan this marriage is over. There’s nothing left here, not after this. You clearly didn’t care about us when you decided to cheat on me so just sign the damn papers!” You shoved the folder to his chest only for it to fall to the ground when he failed to catch it.

“No! Because once I sign this that means we’re done. That means that you’re gone and I’ll have nothing left! I’ll lose you completely and call me selfish but I don’t want that! I want to fix this Y/n, please.” Ethan looked close to tears at this point. He knew he fucked up but he didn’t think you would bring up divorce this soon and he definitely wasn’t expecting you to have the papers with you as soon as you came home.

“Well I don’t! Would you forgive me if I had an affair? If I slept with someone I worked with over and over again? If I went public about it before I told you? If I brought this person into our bed for over a year?”

Silence.

“I didn’t think so. And I wouldn’t expect you to forgive something like that. So please don’t ask the same of me.” You pleaded with him.

“You expect me not to fight for my family? Y/n, you and the kids are my whole world. And I’m so sorry that I fucked it all up. But if you think I’m going to just let you walk out of my life without a fight you’re wrong.”

You let out a deep breath and walked over to the couch closest to you and sat down. Ethan moved to sit across from you, still leaving the folder on the floor. A small part of you wondered if his mistress sat on this same couch that your kids would spend hours on or if he kept her limited to your bed.

“Ethan I’m tired. I’m so fucking tired. I’m not gonna change my mind on this so please don’t drag it out longer than it needs to be. I appreciate that you want to fight for this relationship but it’s useless. I’m sorry but I am not going to sit here and let you think there’s a chance of forgetting what happened because there’s not.” Why give him a flicker of hope when there was none?

“So what? You’re just gonna go? Take the kids with you? They’re my kids too.” If Ethan couldn’t fight for you anymore there wasn’t a chance in hell he wasn’t going to fight for his children.

“I never said I was leaving. Or that I was going to take them. Despite all of this, I don’t want to split up this family. The kids don’t deserve that and as their mother it’s my job to take care of them regardless of what happened and how I feel. They come first. Always.” You could be civil with Ethan but things were never going to be the same.

“I would still live here, in another room obviously. Think of it as having a roommate who you just happen to be raising children with.”

“You’ve thought it through havent you?” You could see the defeat starting to take over his features.

“I have.” You nodded. “We’ve all been through enough. We don’t need more change. And if this is something we can’t live with, we cross that bridge when we get to it and figure out what to do then. I don’t want to split up this family if I don’t have to, but Ethan I need you to sign the papers. I can’t let myself be legally bound to you after all of this. I just can’t.”

Ethan seemed to accept this. He didn’t look thrilled about it but he seemed to understand.

“I still want a lawyer to go over it before I sign it,” he said it so quietly you almost didn’t hear him.

“Of course. Thank you,” you were glad he was agreeing to it.

You got up to go into one of the guest rooms that would now be yours when you heard him call your name.

“Y/n?”

“Hm?” You stopped and turned.

“Are we ever going to be okay?” He looked up at you from where he still sat on the couch.

Would you? You hadn’t really thought that far ahead about the situation.

“Honestly? I don’t know. I hope we can eventually, for what it’s worth. But it’s going to take time.”

Ethan simply nodded at your response.

You grabbed your luggage from where you left it at the stairs and dragged it off to your new room. Everything might still be broken but that’s all it is. Broken. It can be fixed over time but the scars and cracks will always be there. Only time will make this whole thing fade away.

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[sunlightnmoonshine]

Let's talk abt ep 10

Admittedly Itaewon Class has some of the best story telling. How they manage to make so much happen coherently within an hour amazes me. The characters all one of a kind and none one dimensional gives this show so much depth. I always find myself analysing the characters because there's so much to each of them and you see yourself in at least one of them in some instance but I'm going to elaborate on just two characters since ep 10 gave them a lot of fodder.

Jang Geun Won - I could care less abt him because all he'd done thus far was mouth off but admittedly every time he'd do something around Soo Ah or his father I'd just see him as pathetic. Ep 10 kinda just highlighted how truly pathetic he is. I more or less figured the Chairman would try to dismiss Geun Won because like Ro Yi said that's who he is but what I didn't see was him setting up a conference and turning his son in. Basically made his son take the fall for "his" actions.

Let's recap, Jang Geun Won is trash but the first ep more or less highlights how pitiable his character is and how he's the subject of terrible parenting. It's obvious when you see him sitting upset in the hospital and then begging for forgiveness. Thereafter going to his father and asking him to let Ro Yi out. He has a conscience although it's twisted and covered in this notion that money will help him (again something his father put into his head). But watching the chairman cover up his own crimes by throwing his son under the bus was just... I dont know how to describe it because I don't feel sorry for him. He deserves to pay for his actions but he's the victim of a lot of sociological factors along with mental abuse. That moment where he sees his father and a tear falls I was like shit this feels a little unfair.

I could go on abt this there's a lot of psychology here but I dont wanna bore people with details but what needs to be seen is that this drama really went into the role parents have in raising their kids and how the way their kid grows up depends on what they instill in them or the situations they place them in. Not saying that you don't have the choice in what sort of a person you become though (although some have it harder because if psychological factors) which brings us to the next character.

Jang Geun Soo - he's a puppy but these past few eps he's been mildly getting on my nerves not in this oh I dislike your presence kind of a thing but because his behaviour is starting out to border on childish. And this makes sense obviously because he's a child and he doesn't know better.

Leave aside the fact that he feels bad for his family even though what they have done to Ro Yi can frankly never be paid for and thereafter we see that he's going to now Join Jangga and become the Head or more or less be groomed by the Chairman which also means that much like Soo Ah he'll be put in a position where Ro Yi succeeding will be problematic. But let's leave all this aside because I believe he's a good guy and at the end of it he'll make the right decision but duh there's gonna be some drama. The problem I have with all this is that his motivation is Yi Seo.

Now how is this motivation different from Yi Seo's motivation to work at Danbam? It is. It just is and I need an entirely different post to elaborate so I'm not going into that.

But Geun Soo's inherent reactions and that dramatic run he did when he realised "that its okay for me to want you, right?" after everything his family has done to Ro Yi just didn't strike well with me. Again theres definitely going to be some twist so I don't think we need to worry abt them becoming all out enemies and Ro Yi being the understanding monk that he is will sort it out. He's too good for this world btw.

Whys Geun Soo different to Geun Won? Simply because the chairman just didn't care enough to discipline Geun Soo. Sure he abandoned him to get beat up and what not but he actively abuser Guen Won to the point that Geun Won had to please his father. Geun soo in terms of this had it relatively easier because he didn't need to please his father. So while Geun Soo made better choices and he's the kinder better human obviously ( like I said he's adorable I want good things for him but he's gotta get over Yi Seo) he hasnt had that whole sociological psychological abuse factor.

Which is why this drama is so phenomenal. It gives one such food for thought because there's much grey area and you can't paint these characters are typical hero's or typical villains. I mean sure we call Ro Yi a monk but like then we'd need to have seen him abandon his hate and revenge but he ain't doing that is he. Neither does he want to change his actions even if others might not be too happy with thr outcomes. So he's not some selfless being (although let's be honest there's no selfless act)

I could go on. It's been awhile since a kdrama came around that made me analyse (arthdal chronicles I miss you come back soon please) but imma stop here.

[gaytoshi]

Don't get me wrong, I think it's amazing that endeavor is trying to change and I don't want him to stay a piece of crap, but idk man, hrk hasnt been doing a great job at handling the whole subject.

Forgiveness aside, he's had enji force himself into the life of someone he traumatized and who's still triggered by him. It's okay if rei forgives him, shes doing it to move on and that's valid, but some ppl interpret it as she forgiving him because "he wasn't always that bad" or "because she loves him" and that's,,,, well. So far the evidence hints she hated enji enough to attack her son thinking it was him so idk, and whilst I personally interpret the flower he gave her as a "I haven't forgotten about the past and won't leave any of you behind" some ppl interpret it as enji trying to get her back and that's nauseating to me.

Like idk man I'd be happy if they just divorced, if endeavor accepted that he won't be getting a second chance to have a "normal family from scratch", that there was never romantic love there and basically that enji made a mistake from the very beginning based on a nonsensical whim.

I don't even care if the second chance has them being civil or enji somehow getting his children's affection to a certain degree, but I'll puke if enji and rei are put back together after the hell he made her go through and the fact that he himself acknowledged he sought her with a selfish and cruel purpose in mind.

[lingeringscars]

disclaimer: i wrote this at 3am when i should have been sleeping and i have no desire to read back through it so if u see misplaced colons.....don’t @ me. just the usual me being back on my bs !

One of the more fascinating things about spacekru is that....most of the characters have very objective character growth. And im not about to dispute the fact that it has happened but i find it really interesting that....bellamy and raven haven't had it in a way. ( murphy’s going backward rather than forward in a way, at first, is also really important to me !!! )

@loveisaviolence and i have talked briefly about this with raven and how interesting it is but mostly the fact that it doesnt seem like raven has really processed any of her trauma and how instead probably threw herself into trying to get them home. This is as much as I'm going to talk on raven as i do not write her.

But bellamy on face value....seems to have changed a lot. Hes forgiven echo and formed a deep bond with her. Hes more rational in his actions than he typically used to be ( although i have talked ad nauseam about the fact that he always used both his head and his heart in tandem and it always being really fascinating to me. This shift in bellamy and clarke isnt bellamy becoming more head and clarke more heart....its them changing the motivation. Bellamy always used his head to think through what his heart was telling him. Everything with mount weather. Him dressing in azgeda gear to get to clarke. He was guided by his heart but used his head to do it. Clarke is the opposite-- shes guided by what is best for the whole. She uses her head but...her actions are very much her heart...not shooting bellamy when he opened the door or injecting herself with nightblood for instance. )

ANYWAY that tangent aside...bellamy was always very outwardly stressed / anxious. Every emotion would play out on his features and he was prone to outbursts pre space. After space...its become internalized. Like raven, he had a task: uniting them, leading them, survival. He, as always, gives his all to whatever the task is. That leaves little time to focus on himself.

While i do believe he came to terms with his actions, i do not think he ever processed them fully and instead pushed them aside. HOWEVER. Space is also the only time hes actually allowed to be angry. Bellamy doesnt allow himself these emotions when they have a war to fight. It’s also why him being so mad at Clarke in s3 is so important because....for the first time ( since first half of s1 )with her he was able to be !! He forgives because it is necessary. HIM TAKING 3 YEARS TO FORGIVE ECHO IS ACTUALLY PROGRESS. Instead of pushing his feelings down ( which lol he does w/ octavia in s5 and s6 hence the pretty violent emotional outbursts towards her ), he allows himself that time to hate her. He allows himself to be angry bc it doesnt directly impact their survival. They need to work together but that doesnt mean they have to like each other.

Flash forward to the ground and why i really dont think bellamy processed his trauma at all and instead just got better at hiding it. He did get that break from violence and going back to the ground throws him right back into the thick of it....but i also cannot fathom how people dont see how aggressively s1-4 bellamy is still present in his interactions, if more subdued. The most pressing relationships we see this: clarke and octavia.

Im not going to talk about clarke here bc quite frankly i dont remember enough to form coherent thoughts about his attitude towards Clarke in relation to finding out shes alive. Her "death" clearly had a major impact though. and despite them being out of sync...the do both fall back into coleaders with each other quickly.  

But the first thing bellamy does when he gets back....his primary motivation to return: Octavia. He thinks shes in danger so they need to go back down...immediately. more moments of everything being very internalized now is that very first bellamy & echo interaction where she reels him back in when he begins to spiral at the possibility that o isnt alive. He returns to the ground for her and then fights to get down to the bunker to rescue her.

Rescue. He still has the mentality that she is his responsibility. He should have been down there with her. He should have helped her. He is still taking the world onto his shoulders---- so did he really grow at all? Did he learn that everything is not his responsibility? Did he confront his upbringing and the consequences of it? No.

Come season 6 and he says that he has too many sins to release a lantern because he really hasnt forgiven himself at all. He thinks about it every day. He sees the faces in his dreams every night. He has not processed or moved forward at all.

And when we get the BIGGEST step of growth in the history of his character....."you are my sister. But you are not my responsibility. Not anymore." Not anymore. It is SO IMPORTANT that he is starting to FINALLY accept that octavia needs to take responsibility of her own actions..can no longer blame himself for not being able to stop her / help her....but...

Not anymore.

I dont know how to word this in a way that will sound eloquent so bear with me.... not anymore. Meaning it once was. Meaning....he thinks that up until she burned the farm he is to blame for her actions. Up until she burned the farm, she was his responsibility. He didnt confront what their mom said to him when he was six years old. He did not acknowledge the burden that was placed on him because he doesnt see it that way. He doesnt see it as something that was unfair or unreasonable because to go back to season 1....his life both ended the day she was born and started then too. He had a purpose taking care of octavia....he almost idolizes his mother [ the girl under the stairs like mom taught us...she raised me to be better than this. To be good ]. The thing space did allow him was the time to really, truly find a family outside of Octavia for the first time ever. Space allowed him the chance to have and love people FOR HIMSELF. And that made it a lot easier for him to break away and out of this stranglehold of a relationship where, in so many ways, he had been programmed to believe that everything was on him and any mistake was his fault. In space, he was able to see that there is life outside of octavia....but that doesnt mean he has processed the life he had with her...because he didn't.

In conclusion: bellamy really hasnt processed his trauma at all...just got better at directing it and hiding it. His anxiety became more internal: wringing his hands versus running into battle. He wants to move forward. He wants to do better. But he hasnt confronted the past--- not fully. And as long as there is a task to be completed, he never will. It isnt how he is programmed. He will run himself into the ground before taking a moment for himself because a leader gives everything that they are to their people. Space gave him a FAMILY. a place outside of octavia. something that is more balanced, with mutual respect and care....but when it comes to processing trauma? becoming more whole w/ himself in a way other members of spesikru have? not so much..........

[romansrgn]

Summary: One night can cause a man to lose everything he didn't know he wanted. But is really too late to get it back?

Desc: Seth Rollins X Reader (Kinda)

Requested by: @colbynatorsforlife 

Word Count: 1824

Warning: Angst, Talk of Cheating and SMUT

taglist: @queenofthearchitect 

 I walked out of Vince’s office feeling like a weight was just  lifted off my shoulder. I’ve been trying to avoid it by both denying it and by not talking about it. But I knew that there was no way I can deny what was going to be obvious to everyone else.

Naomi, Ember, Bianca, Sasha and Alicia were outside waiting for me, they had my back the entire time so it was only fitting that would be the first ones I told.

‘How did it go?” Alicia asked.

I merely shrugged fighting back the urge to burst into tears “It was hard. Harder than I hoped it would be.”

Sasha removed her glasses and wiped the tears from her eyes “This would be difficult for anyone in your position but you’re you. You’re the toughest bitch I know. You’re going to be a tough act to follow.”

My face scrunched up, now I’m full on crying “That’s not helping.”

Naomi swatted Sasha away “Move, Sasha. We’re supposed to be cheering her up. Not crying and acting a hot mess.”

Bianca placed the Raw Women’s Champion over my shoulder “Go get em, girl.”

“We’ll be waiting for you when you’re done.” Ember added as we all huddled together for a group hug.

We broke apart when I heard my music hit. I gave one last look at my girls before heading to the ring.

When I’m in front of the crowd I always get chills but this was different this was something I wanted to bottle up and carry with me forever. In a weird way I think it was because they knew. They read the blogs. They speculated on instagram and on twitter. They felt the atmosphere change, I wasn't coming into the American Airlines Arena as Williow, I was simply (Y/N)

I grabbed the mic from Jojo who announced me. She gave a comforting smile before exiting the ring, leaving me alone.

“The last three months have been a string of highs, more highs” I looked down at the Raw Women’s championship “and some low’s.” I looked at the crowd who was holding onto my every word “But there’s a time when you have to face all the obstacles life throw's at you no matter how unprepared you are. Which is exactly why I have to relinquish my championship.”

The crowd gasped and looked on in confusion.

Backstage Superstars from both brands where gathered around watching the monitors in support.

“I’m not giving this title up because of an injury or anything like that. It’s simply because I’m expecting my first child in the summer of this year.” I lifted my buttoned down flannel shirt to reveal a tank top covered bump.

The crowd cheered and so did all the superstars in the back, expect one atleast. Who merely looked at the screen in shock.

“I want to thank my fans, the superstars,  the wwe and the wwe universe for all of their support over the last few years. This isn't goodbye because I will be back for what’s mine. It’s just that this time, I’m going to have a little mini me with me to tag along for the ride. I love you all and I’ll see you soon.”

I laid the title down on the ground before taking my signature bow and exiting the ring with “Thank You WIllow” as my symphony.

I got backstage and was greeted with tons of superstars with their congratulations.

“Oh my god!  We’re so happy for you.” Nikki Bella said pulling me into a hug.

“I can’t wait until Birdie has a new playmate.” Brie beamed while Daniel pulled me in for a hug.

“I got dibs on Uncle E.” Big E yelled bringing me into a light bear hug.

"My baby sister is having a baby." Roman said kissing me on top of the head.

Dean rubbed my back comfortably. I didn't miss the knowing smile he and Roman both gave me.

By the time I made it through the superstar parade of congratulations. I was promptly snatched off to the side and into a locker room.

“You weren't going to tell me?” he whispered heatedly.

I shrugged him off “Of course not. I figured I’d tell all the most important people first.”

“I get it. You’re still pissed at me and this is your way of getting back at me. But I had a right to know.”

My relationship with Seth ended six months ago. Long story short? He cheated on me.

Both brands were touring across South America together which hasnt happened in a long time but it was beneficial and profitable to the company. During the days we got to see our fans, put on amazing shows and do press but when we weren't doing that we were enjoying the nightlife, at least some of us were.

Since I was still the active Raw Women’s Champion that meant I spent most of my free time doing press. Which also meant Seth and I were not together as much as I either of us wanted too.

Although we both understood that this was our job. We were still in a relationship. When we were apart Seth was with Mandy. At first it wasn't by choice. We were all separated in groups to do press and after the first few days Seth made it a point to remind me of that whenever I saw her seek him out. Then them "working together" turned into whispers and casual touches but nothing to raise my suspicions. I was never the jealous type. That was until we got back to America and the rumors started. Fans would tell stories on blogs and social media about how they saw Seth and Mandy at a bar or a club together. Which wasn't uncommon since we all hung out at clubs and bars. So I didn't believe it. That was until I saw a picture of them kissing with his hand up her skirt on Instagram.

Oddly enough after we broke up I found out I was pregnant a month later.

Seth sighed running a frustrated hand through his hair taking a different approach “I hurt you and I’m sorry for that. You will never know how much I regret what I did to you, to us. But how do you expect us to fix things if you won't--.”

“There’s nothing to fix, Colby. You cheated on me.” I interrupted him “I mean do you have any idea how hard it is to look at you without seeing her and what you did.” tears started to fall and I wiped them away angrily hating that he still got to see this side of me “and I hate myself because I still love you so fucking much that its crippling and It hurts.”

Seth closed the short distance between them placing his large hands on both sides of my face “Baby, listen to me. I fucked up and I will do anything to take it all back. To be the man you deserve and I can be. Just let me -- Forgive me, please.” he whispered brokenly.

I cried “What did I do to make you hurt me--”

“Nothing, you did nothing wrong. It was me. It was all me and I was pissed off about the bookings lately and I just...I fucked up but I want to make it right, baby. I love you and our baby.” he said looking down at her slightly protruding stomach.

"How could I have not noticed?" Seth thought before dropping to his knees pressing his forehead gently against my stomach to get a better look at our baby “I love you.” he whispered and kissed my stomach causing me to squirm a little.

“My baby like's that.” he said looking up at me as he did it again causing me to moan at the odd sensation. This time instead of stopping he kissed his way back up my body. Paying close attention to my growing breast and my neck.

“Colby.” I moaned my small hands gripping the back of his hair.

Seth groaned “Do you have an idea how much I’ve missed you moaning my name?" He whispered against my lips.

I opened my eyes only to meet a smoldering gaze that instantly sent a signal to pussy to get wet.

He teased my lips with his tongue begging for entry, I happily obliged, I jerked at the first contact but he kept me firmly in place by placing his large hand on the back of my head.

It didn't take long for my legs to clear the ground as they were wrapped around his perfectly trimmed waste. We made our way over to the couch as he gently laid me down beneath him “Let, daddy take care of you.”

I said nothing. There was apart of me that knew that having sex with him wasnt going to solve anything. In fact, it would likely make things worse. But as of late my mind, body and soul has aching for him.

It was insane how they went for hating eachother, loving eachother, hurting eachother and now this. It was irrational and idiotic on my part but I guess that's kinda how I would describe love.

Within minutes we were fully naked with Seth thrusting madly into me.

“Ah.” I moaned as he pounded into me at the right speed “You’re so deep.”I moaned and arched my back as lips latched on to my nipple.

"So fucking wet" His tone was almost worshipful as he pounded into my gushiness "and so fucking tight."

I cried out once he angled his hips just right and his dick started tap dancing on my G Spot. My pussy clenched and I knew I wasnt going to last much longer "Shit, I'm finna cum."

"Don't hold back. Let me fill it. Cum all over this dick, little mama." He whispered in my ear as he continued to pound into me.

I dragged my fingernails down his back drawing blood as he fucked me just a little harder and a little deeper. The smell of sex and the sound of his dick rutting into me was almost too much. I knew I wasnt going to make it a minute longer and just as soon as I thought it I came so fucking hard I saw stars.

Seth continued to pound into me chasing his own release "FUCKKK, baby I'm coming." he groaned releasing a stream of cum inside of me.

Seth shivered still coming down from his orgasm. After a few more minutes he rested his forehead against mine as we both breathed heavily into eachother's mouths.

"Did I hurt you?" He whispered.

I merely nodded. Both of us knowing I wasnt talking about the sex.

A tear rolled down his cheek "I'm sorry." I love you

And against my better judgment I said "We're having a girl." I love you too.

[codyfernaesthetic]

Dichotomy

Part 17

Summary:

Michael and Mallory find a moment of peace.

Author’s notes:

I’m sorry these are getting so short. But again, I really didn’t want to waste time and not get it out there. But I would love to hear feedback from you guys? Like, are you liking the direction, do you want me to speed things up? I know I’m responsible for it at the end of the day but I care about what you guys are thinking. I don’t wanna bore you guys lol Hope you enjoy!

The students and mentors, with the exception of Madison, of Robicheaux’s Academy gathered together in one room to listen to Mallory’s story of the apocalypse, being met with confused questions and fearful looks. Michael stood by her side protectively, his gentle hands grasping her shoulders, her own reaching to pat them. Cordelia sat at the end of the long table, stone faced; absorbing her every word with grave solemnity. Myrtle eyed Michael incredulously, her lips in a tight line; as did every witch that saw his display of power at Hawthorne’s. The news of their supernatural parentage filled the room with awed murmurs. Cordelia finally stood, a hush falling over them. She took in a deep breath, looking at Mallory with a bemused smile, “You’re powers were always so far advanced with so little training, but I would’ve never suspected this.”

“We’re refugees now. Cordelia,” Michael chimed in.

Mallory could see the tensing muscles and distrustful stares in his direction, particularly from Zoe, Queenie, and Myrtle. They looked like a pack of lionesses ready to devour an approaching gazelle. She instinctively clutched his hand tightly to send silent assurance that he was not going to hurt them.

“I can’t say that you have my forgiveness,” he continued glaring at the Supreme, “But all that matters to me now is Mallory’s safety,” he glanced down at her, “I swear that as long as she lives, I pose no threat to you or the world.”

His proclamation was met with icy silence. Cordelia stepped from the table and made a slow, deliberate walk to their end; her gaze never faltering.

When she stood before them, her eyes dropped to Mallory, understanding, but nervous nonetheless, “My sister’s ally is mine,” she took her hand, “You will be given the solemn protection of this coven,” she looked at him once again, “and of the Supreme.”

Mallory smiled gratefully, pushing back her chair and embracing her, “Thank you, Cordelia.”

The woman hugged her tightly, “I’m sure after all you’ve been through, you want to spend some time with everyone.”

Mallory nodded and the rest of the women stood to gather around her, nervously chattering and hugging her, even though in their eyes not even a day had passed since last they saw her. Myrtle kissed her on the cheek, “I knew you were special, dear,” she commented lovingly. Queenie and Zoe smiled and hugged her. Mallory returned their welcome eagerly, allowing tears to flow freely down her cheeks.

She pulled back from Queenie and saw Coco approaching sheepishly, her trademark pink lipstick adorning her lips. Mallory stared at her, like seeing the dead raised back to life. She wrapped her arms around her neck and squeezed, “I’m so fucking glad to see you.”

Coco looked at her laughing, and Mallory relished the friendship she saw in her eyes, “So, daughter of god. As if you weren’t already amazing.”

She cupped her friend’s face, touching their foreheads together, “I have a suspicion that you’re much more amazing than you give yourself credit for.”

The friends hugged again. The other witches returning to their fellowship. Cordelia slipped out of the room unnoticed.

As did Michael.

“Cordelia,” he called to her with a firm voice. She turned, her back straightening.

“I meant what I said. As long as Mallory lives, you and your coven have your safety.”

Her gaze was controlled, but underneath it held fiery indignation, “Don’t presume that because Mallory trusts you, I offer the same courtesy.”

“Likewise,” he stepped forward, “I’m not a double minded man. She hasn’t changed who I am, but she has changed my priorities. If any harm comes to her, especially under your watch,” his voice was deadpan and gravely serious, “her last breath is your death sentence.”

She narrowed her eyes, stepping up to him, “Don’t you dare threaten me, little boy.”

His tone was barely above a whisper, “Don’t you dare test me, Miss Supreme.”

Without another word, he turned on his heels and walked back to rejoin Mallory.

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Myrtle was kind enough to buy Michael some clothes and essentials, commenting that even her enemies needed to be well dressed; Mallory was sure she wasn’t joking. Cordelia was at first hesitant to let a boy share Mallory’s room, but given the circumstances, permitted it.

“At least this one’s not undead,” Queenie muttered under her breath just to Cordelia.

The witches slept uneasily that night; the wind outside howling like a desperate animal scratching at their doorstep. Michael inspected himself in the mirror after taking a shower and changing into a black t-shirt and sweatpants. Mallory watched him bemused as he drug his fingers through his now short and very curly locks.

“I like the short hair,” she offered.

“I look like a child,” he groaned, “I liked my hair.”

She snickered at his pouting, he shot her a glare, “It was my look.”

She sighed dramatically, “Oh, god forbid Michael Langdon look less than immaculate.”

He gave up and shook his head, flipping off the bathroom light as he passed her. She gripped his arm, stopping him, “Hey.”

He gazed down into her eyes. It was like a moment of clarity. During the insanity and blur of plagues and gods and death—

He had forgotten how beautiful she was. How utterly, all consuming her deep brown eyes were; they pulled him beneath a swirling ocean, barely breathing, but never more alive.

He leaned down and kissed her, deeply, but gently. She tasted like magic and earth and sky; like the beauty of the universe. Her delicate hands cupped his face, breaking the kiss to look into his eyes. He’d kill for her. He’d slaughter any god, demon, or mortal that dared touch her. He would rip the world into two and cast her enemies into hell.

“Feels like I haven’t gotten to do that in a while.”

He rested his hands on the curve of her hips, “Any second apart is too much.”

She blushed, leaning into him, “Could you foresee this at the Outpost?” She asked jokingly, “That some little nobody would factor into the Apocalypse like this?”

“There was never a doubt in my mind that you were someone extraordinary.”

She looked at him, “You know, I think I felt there was something always there between us. Some kind of magnetic pull or cosmic intuition,” she shrugged, “Or maybe that’s just me overthinking.”

“No.”

He caresses her face, “You enchanted me from the moment we met.”

She moved away from him, walking to the bed, “This just feels so...strange.”

She sat on the edge of her bed, twiddling her thumbs.

He joined her, wrapping his arms around her, “That’s putting it mildly.”

She ran her fingers through his hair, “According to everything...our past...our actions...our destinies...How could we ever...how could I feel as in love with you as I do?” She chuckled, “I defied God to her face because I couldn’t tell my heart to stop soaring when I’m with you; because it was impossible, after seeing into your soul, to not love you.”

Tears came to his eyes, the sight more beautiful to her than anything, “It’s like I told you, Mallory. There are forces at work beyond human will. Some things are inevitable.”

She brought their lips together again, whispering, “I’m glad you’re my inevitable.”

He moaned deeply into her mouth, pushing her back onto the bed. He entwined their fingers as he straddled her hips, “I’m yours,” he gasped, “I’m yours until the end of time.”